Well, things as of late have been a little....stale, for lack of a better term. Work is work. I'm thankful for the paycheck, but I also miss looking forward to going to work everyday. Friends are...nonexistent for the most part. Doesn't seem like much has changed since I left St. Louis.
I'm still trying. God help me I'm trying. Doing my best to change myself. To become worthy. But staying focused is difficult. In fact there are are days when I contemplate packing up and leaving in the middle of the night. And if all of this sounds familiar, that's because it's the same bullshit I've been spouting for the last 3 years. I'm just not sure what else I need to do.
The one thing I am sure of right now is that I can't wait to go home. I need to recharge. Reassure myself that I left for a reason. Remind myself that I couldn't grow any further there. Maybe then it will all make sense again.
Fall is in full affect.....
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