Ok, let me explain.
I figured this whole me giving little updates on my day to day life out here was getting old for all 3 of you that read this, so let's change it up a bit.
Let me start by saying that moving is a very lonely process. And it doesn't really help that just last night I was hit with the pretty fucking obvious realization that for the first time in my life, I live alone. Completely alone. Why did it take so long for that hit me?
One thing I've noticed since coming out here is how my mind has started to focus incessantly on girls back home. Some of whom I've never actually thought about before. So why now? No doubt, my desire to be back home where things were simpler and less scary has started to manifest itself in the form of feelings for girls who remind me of those simpler and scarier times. Which essentially just makes things worse because it leads me to thinking about home even more.
And just to make things more interesting, I've started to discover that loneliness causes you to think about sex ALL THE FUCKING TIME! It's bad enough being a guy and not being able to go more than just a few seconds without thinking about it, but now it seems that thoughts about sex are on a constant loop in my head. As you can imagine, it makes it very hard to concentrate Especially in a place like L.A. where beautiful women are plentiful.
So what to do?
Nothing I guess. Wait for things to even out and become normal. Seems to be what I've been doing for a few years now.
P.S. Just in the event that someone was interested in my day to day out here, I'll tell you that my apartment finally seems to be coming together now that I have internet, cable, and a queen size sofa-bed from ikea. Which reminds me, at some point in your life, either you or someone you know will want to go to ikea on a Saturday. As innocent as this may sound, you should NEVER go there. Your future and well being will depend on it. JUST SAY NO!
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